Searching in Silence

"i looked for you in their stories,

and i couldn't find you there.

i looked for you in my own stories,

and i lost you there.

crying, i released all parts of you

and waited in silence.

a forever silence.

wondering if i'd ever see you again.

wondering if i'd ever touch you again.

slowly, you crept back into my being.

slowly, i understood you never left.

quietly i watched.

quietly i felt.

trembling, i stood in awe.

trembling, i bowed my head

as your presence filled me."

~terri st. cloud